Can I just say I purely had fun this week. Both inside and outside school but I BET it will be a torture day for me tomorrow. Fuck. It's our defense already.
Week recap, please?
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Brief recapping okay.
Last Sunday, Gil picked me up around 12 midnight to go to Anton's house. I was about to sleep already! I didn't drink tough. Gil and I we're just fooling around and alamniyona. We we're both happy. Drove me home around 4am.
Monday no classes and Ava went to my house to invite me to drink. Anak ng tokwa lang talaga. Since I can't say no, I just ACCOMPANIED her. I didn't drink that much because I want to attend my classes the following day. And besides, Gil forced me to go home already.
Tuesday. My morning class was Catech and luckily our prof gave me a make-up exam for the two exams that I missed last last Tuesday. I wasn't ready, mind you. Hence, I really had a hard time answering it. Ate lunch then went to the Library to study for my NCM exam which has a coverage long as the Marcos Hiway haha. Romnick and Oiskie joined us in the Library sooooo Idk, my concentration decrease from 10 to 5. OH FUCK. My exam in NCM is sooo difficult. It's like we're taking the boards already, shit. I mean of all the different diseases that I read, I got confused already HAHA. After class, Ish and I went to Gil's house since Jay misses Ish haha. UBE with Jay, Ate Tin, Ate AV, Gil and Ish till 730pm. Yay.
Wednesday was a good day for me too. I woke up around 10am already and went to school by lunctime. Fixed my thesis then went to Gil's house. I surprised him with my HS uniform which he REAAALLLY likes, by the way. HAHA. My parents went to Katipunan around 10pm so I just went there to meet them up and go home. GOOD TIMES.
Duty days agaaaain. Crame for Thursday. BORING BUT FUN. Ate Anne was in XV to visit Jay so she insisted me to go there too. But what the fuck, when I arrived at XV Gil wasn't there HAHAHA. He thought my duty was up until 6pm so he went to Monte first to play ball. So i waiteeeed for an hour. Pero siyempre bumawi naman si loko pagkauwi niya hehe. All we did was eat then sleep then watch TV then eat again then shower time na HAHA. Went home by 8pm because I have to wake up early the following day.
Nodado for Friday. Tiring like shit. I just hate being assigned to an OB patient since it means you have two patients right away. Although the baby is cute, it was soooo tiring talaga. Left Caloocan around 5:30pm and arrived at school around 7pm. Went home, rest for awhile, ate dinner, shower then sexied up for Alchemy. PUTANGINA ANG SAYA. My village friends were there, Monte boys were there and some of my school friends too. Around 2am we were so hungry already so we went to Eastwood to eat. Went home by 3am and Gil stayed for awhile but then he's sooo sleepy already so he left na rin after awhile.
Saturday. I woke up around 3pm already hahaha. Gil fetched me around 9pm to go to Eastwood. The last full show was at 1030pm pa so we walked around first. Sam and Toni were hilarious HAHA. Went home after the movie then Gil and I went straight to Ate Sasa's house. Chris and Bryan were there so we decided to drink. Oh THEY pala haha. Shaila came over so iyon. Ang daming jooooooookes at mge psychological and mathematical testssssssssss. FUN TIME. Biglang napansin na lang namin 5am na so nagbalak na kaming umuwi. Sabay nang umuwi si Gil and Shaila pataas. GAWD. SO SLEEPPPY.
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So many things to do, seryoso. Ill just sleep again then do it later. Tangina, procasTINAting again? I hate it.
Gil is sleeping at the moment. Hindi pa rin niya talaga nababawi tulog niya. Me neither. He went home around 6am already and I woke up around 10am. So I am really, so sleepy right now.
Puta. Kailan ba hindi? HAHA.
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Gusto kong kiligin, bakit ba?
Ikaw ang pinakamagandang baby sa buhay ko e... (022408)
Ikaw pa rin talaga, Viene. Nasayo pa rin ang puso ko. (022208)
I love you. (022208)
Baaah. Nap time.
It feels soooo good to be home on a Saturday. Hey, this is a first ha. And another first is that I had a happy week, people. So smile for me! YAY. Looooove.
I did attend my Monday classes but for Tuesday and Wednesday? Holy Kamote, tamaditis just came over me. I just can't say no to this really really cute guy who doesn't want me to go to school.
And I think a Tse Tse Fly bit us because we've been sleeping the whole day for Tuesday and Wednesday. And on Wednesday we have to be together until 11pm at Tin's house, doing and fixing my Thesis. Wow, thanks a lot sweetie.
And here comes duty days at NGH in Caloocan. Punyeta. I just hate waking up so early. Our school van leaves at 5am and I calculated everything so I wake up around at 4:10am HAHA. Fifteen minutes shower, fifteen minutes fixing up, fifteen minutes travel time to school. I have extra 5 minutes for our morning circle HAHA. That's how much I value my sleeping hours that I don't want to have extra time for lame things haha.
My duty is from 6am to 6pm. It's still dark when we go to Nodado and yes, it is also dark already when we go back to school. Nakakapurga talaga. Especially, when YOU CAN'T SIT during duty hours. Tangina sumisigaw na mga binti ko sa sobrang ngalay. Hay. I just have to secretly go to a vacant room where I can sit down! Nyeta talga. But the good thing about having duty in Nodado is that we don't have duty on Saturdays!
It feels so good being with someone who is really important to you after having a very tiring day. I know it sucks because everytime I am with him after duty, my eyes just want to close and I just want to lay down and watch TV. But since he is so sweet, he makes everything extra special. Makes me smile everytime
I am VERY VERY VERY PROUD to say that I ditched my friends who invited me to go with them at Temple and Emba. I mean, it is really tempting to go right since they wrote my name in the guestlist BUT sorry, I just have to spend his special day with him. And besides, I miss the LSM boys! He's coming anytime now so I better get my ass off to the bathroom and take a shower.
Spread the love, guys
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Oh and for the joint party later.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROMNICK, MARC & VIRGILIO!!!
Alam mo, sa totoo lang, nalulungkot pa rin naman ako e. Oo, may mabubuting pagbabago naman na nangyari sakin pero ewan ko. Pakiramdam ko, asa loob lahat nakatago. Asa loob nabubuhay.
Eto, sorry. Hindi ko na alam kung sino sino nakakabasa nito pero pagbigyan niyo na ako. Maglalabas lang ako ng mga nararamdaman ko. Ngayon lang.
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Actually, napaka-importante 'tong blog kong 'to kasi dito ko talaga nalalabas most of my feelings in different defining moments of my life. Si Gil, kung hindi ako nagkakamali, siya talaga iyong taong masasabi kong naging malaking parte talaga sa buhay. Alam iyon ng pamilya ko, alam iyon ng mga kaibigan ko. Alam niya, alam ko. Lahat ng masasayang pakiramdam naranasan ko nung nagkakasama pa kami. Lahat ng klaseng tuwa at tawa, nakuha ko sakanya. Iyon talaga iyong mga bagay na hinding hindi kong ipagpapalit kahit kailan, kahit kanino. Iyon lang ang mga bagay na alam kong tama sa buhay ko.
Si Gil na siguro ang nag-iisang taong nagturo sakin kung pano talaga magmahal. Iyong may respeto, iyong may kabutihan, iyong walang ginawa kundi iparamdam sakin na mahal na mahal niya ako. His love made me love my life. His love made me love him so much. His love means everything to me.
Kung iisipin mo, ang bilis ng panahon. Dalawang buwan nang nakakaraan nung magkahiwalay kami ni Gil. Dalawang buwan? Pano nakayanan iyon? Or more, kinaya ko ba even?
Kahit naman nagkahiwalay kami ni Gil, madaming beses pa rin kaming nagkasama at nagkausap. Parang kami, sabi nila. Parang. Pero ang hihirap hirap. Dahil sa labas parang ayos, pero sa loob, buhol buhol. Parang iyong mga emosyon namin pareho, d alam kung anong dapat maramdaman. That's when we decided to stop everything. No meetings, no talks. Pero syempre, once in awhile you'll be weak to text the other person and ask how they are. Sobrang kakaiba ang feeling pag biglang magtetext si Gil at tinatanong kung asan ako o kamusta na ako o basta iyong ipapaalala niya sakin iyong nakaraan. I want to feel happy but my heart just can't.
Minsan iiyak na lang kami pareho. Minsan malulungkot na lang kami pareho. Minsan ilang na ilang kami magsabi kung ano nararamdaman namin.. hanggang bibigay na lang. Baby. I love you. Mga bagay na pag naririnig ko galing sakanya, melts my heart everytime.
Two months haven't done so much
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Mahirap magkunwari at magtago. Mahirap magpigil. Mahirap lumayo. Kaya tuwing naiisip ko siya at mararamdaman ko na malulungkot nanaman ako, parati at agad agad kong sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi na niya ako mahal.
Kaso mahirap pa rin. Lalo na pag sinasabi niyang mahal niya ko.
We both criiiiiieeeed.
Waaah. I'm having my siesta nap when he called. We were fucking having this dramathon sa hapon HAHAHA.
And then he went to that girl's debut. Blowfish daw sabi ni Cholo at EI. As in ganto 
? HAHA gaga.
He was asking me if I want him to pass by here at my house first but theeeen nah, that's suicide for me. Hay.
Atleast Luigi is keeping me company. He shall save me from all my worries 
